Unit 3-Self-reflection (yikes!), goals and mediation

Self-reflection can be a very difficult thing for most people. It is scary to look within! Truthfully I tend to look at things through rose colored glasses. I could easily complain about my crazy schedule from running my own business, teaching, taking three classes, a wedding and moving. Oh and by the way is Christmas coming soon?! I instead tell people I am living the dream, mostly because I am living. Tomorrow isn't promised to us and I try to appreciate every moment on this earth (even though I sometimes forget to be so grateful!).

My physical well-being I have trouble rating. I feel so lucky to be alive and have my health. I would love to rate myself a ten but if I truly reflect inward I would lower it for sure depending on the day. I was in a car accident and suffer from a pain disorder that will complicate me having children. I truly feel lucky that I have a medication that manages my pain and even though it will be complicated I still will be able to have children. Yet there are days (few and far between) when I feel angry, bitter and that it is unfair. I struggle with this and my positivity about the situation is something I work on daily. Spiritually I would rank myself a 9. I only take away the one point because sometimes I lose faith in people. There are some atrocious things that happen in this world. When I think about these things I choose to focus on the heroes. Psychologically I rate myself a 8. Like I said earlier there are days when I mentally struggle with my situation but they are rare for sure. All and all I feel so lucky to be alive and that I have the health of myself and my family. Wow truthful self-reflection can be brutal!

My physical well-being goal is going to be linked directly to my psychological goal. My goal is to focus on my positive aspects of my health and to train my brain into acceptance of my situation instead of occasionally bitterness. My spiritual goal is to continue my work on sending out love instead of judgment. I believe even quick judgments that are never verbalized can bring negative thoughts into your brain. I am going to work on only positive loving thoughts about everyone and everything.

In class this week we did a mediation technique called The Crime of the Century.  I had a love/hate relationship with this exercise.  I enjoyed the part of the exercise that talked about opening up and seeking balance.  I found it useful and relaxing to work on my breathing and sending out positive thoughts to people.  I did have some difficulty imagining the different color light beams shooting from my body.  I know that they were the Chakra colors and I see how it could be beneficial for some people.  For me though trying to force these images took away from the exercise and relaxation.  Over all I ended the exercise feeling energized but relaxed.  I would like to find a mediation tape like this exercise but perhaps without the visualization.

Hello Everyone!

Hello everyone taking the time to read my blog!  My name is Pamela Davis and I live in New Hampshire with my husband and our two dogs (known lovingly as "the boys").  I live a pretty busy life, hence the thriving in chaos!  I run my own busy massage therapy practice.  I specialize in therapeutic work like pain relief, postural deviations, MS, cerebral palsy, migraines and neck injuries.  I teach as well at a local college.  I love teaching my favorite thing is when my students have the AHA! moment and they understand fully what I am showing them.  I love teaching students about what I am passionate about.  I also am going to school online and love the amazing classes I am taking.  I am taking a very interesting class right now called creating wellness: The psychological and spiritual aspects of healing.  Even though we have just started we have already learned some incredible things about how our thoughts effect our health.  We listened to  a Journey On Relaxation today that was very interesting. The voice on the recording led you through a relaxation exercise where you focused on directing your blood into your arms and hands.  Without even moving you were able to feel the increased blood flow and the warmth in your hands.  I enjoyed this exercise two fold because my hands are always freezing and maybe I can use this as a way to warm them up.  Seriously though, this exercise was a great way to focus on your body and taught you how to relax.  It is important that we take time for ourselves and learn how to properly relax.  Exercises like this also help us feel linked to our body.  Few people stop and think about their body and how it feels and how to relax their muscles.  If we never take time for ourselves we will eventually run out of time, things and energy to give to other people.  It is crucial that we utilize self care as a routine.  My favorite thing to do for myself is take a bath and read.  Even if I don't really have time to do it I do it anyhow, guilt free.  It's the little mental health things that we do for ourselves that are so important.  If you are not going to care of yourself who will?